Recurring nightmare ?

I was looking for a taxi,
I saw an empty one ..
A fat guy seemed to own it ..
I was supposed to go somewhere (?!) ..
I get into the taxi ..
We go in a direction i'm not supposed to be heading ..
I argue with the driver ..
He refuses to stop ..
I get out ..
I see a weapon in his hands ..
I run ..
A very vague recollection of me escaping more than once ..
I wake up in a shabby room ..
It's not mine ..
I see my belongings ..
I hear noises ..
Someone knocks the door ..
A man enters the door ..
I don't know him ..
Who is it ?
A stranger ?
He tells me something ..
Goes through my stuff ..
I think I have something I'm not supposed to have ..
He tells me that ..
I ask what it is ..
More noises ..
Two more people enter ..
I can recognize a silhouette ..
Someone I know ..
Very well ..
A friend ?
Who is it ?
I can't see the other one's face ..
Something obstructing my view ..
I can see his legs ..
I can see his stance ..
I can almost hear his voice ..
I seem to know him ..
Who is it ?
And why did I wake up ?
Sweating ?
Betrayal ?

Cold

And I dreamed the dream again ..
That dream's always the same,
Flowing like a stream without a name ..
I always knows how it ends,
But can never stop the shivers it sends ..

And I had to turn silent again ..
For something I haven't said,

And I felt alone again ..
Like a natural born loner ..

And I felt like dying again ..
I wonder when he would strike ..

Having to dream nightmares,
Having to turn silent,
I have felt the cold ..
Having being born alone,
Having Death at a teasing distance,
I have become cold ..

The dead letter

I thought about you and wrote those words,
All the time being as honest as I could ..
Sealing the envelope with a kiss,
And all I wanted from you was an answer ..

Remembering the time when we were free as birds,
Promising ourselves it'll all turn out good ..
And all the time we used to be in bliss,
When we used to think love was like a bright color ..

Since, don't you think we've moved backwards ?
And away from each other like pieces of driftwood ?
Even distant, you'll forever be my princess,
You're the keeper of my heart, you're my jailer ..

I now spend my time playing billiards,
and I wrote to you not because I was bored,
Hope this as a random act you won't dismiss,
And tell me something that'll make me feel better ..

All day I've been looking eastwards,
Waiting for the mailman, hoping he would ..
But all I've come across are snakes' hiss,
And my life has been getting bleaker ..

I thought maybe I was penning some crosswords,
And those were things you never understood ..
And I thought I was destined for the abyss,
But little did I know you never got the letter ..